Martha is affraid...

This play has made a deep impression on me. At first of course I was shocked by Martha's behavior (and George’s too sometimes), for it was soooo ridiculous. Martha is so brutal and careless of consequences her words hold, it’s almost funny, and at the same time annoying. She acts obnoxiously because she is very unhappy, and I think that she hates men. She even tells Nick “you are all flops!" after she sleeps with him. Her hopes and expectations did not realize in her life, and she blames it on her husband. But although I thought her character was terrible, I still felt sorry for her at the end when she was talking about her "son". I could not help but break down crying seeing how much she wanted and loved that illusion; a symbol of their marriage that George had to destroy because he had enough and she cheated on him. From the very begging I pretty much knew that the son was not real (from the point when they argue about his eye color), so it was not such a shock for me at the end when the truth was out in the open.But as I said I was still very emotional because of a sense of a compassion I had. I almost think that although Martha acts like she hates George, deep inside she is afraid to loose their marriage. Thats why she is so upset when he tells her that the boy is dead.  I am very intrigued by this play and now can not wait to find out more about it and about Albee tomorrow in class.